Not Alone

This is hard. Really, really hard. I couldn't do it alone. But, luckily, I'm not alone.

Today was extra hard. I didn't sleep a ton and felt tired and grumpy today. We went on a nice walk and looked and Florida apartments and fed Parley a lot but didn't even attempt to do any cooking, laundry, dishes, or thank you notes. At about 7pm, Parley was ravenously hungry, and so was I. He had a huge screaming crying time that lasted hours. I had a big cry too, but it didn't last near as long. I couldn't have done it without Nikki. He cooked and brought me food and held Parley and me as we cried, together and separately. In Rissa's blog, she wrote that in relationships, men bring stability. Nikki was oozing stability and love and that everything is going to be just fine. And it is. Now I'm feeding our sweet boy, and he is acting so gentle and perfect. And I got a little nap!


I've been so grateful for all the people in my life. I talk to my sisters and mom everyday and feel so connected and loved by them. Yesterday, my wonderful aunt Deborah came to visit. It made my whole day. We talked about all sorts of things and both got teary, and I felt deeply connected. On Sunday, I went to church for the first time since Parley was born. I felt so loved. Everyone was really excited to see Parley. There are so many people in the ward that really care about us, and it feels so good. We're going to miss them. Also, Nikki spoiled me with balloons and icecream and a delicious steak dinner. Oh, I love him!



I am so grateful for the wonderful supports I have in my life and that I am not alone. 💕

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